Sexual Harassement

26 Apr

I’m watching Law and Order:SVU.  It’s about news women being harassed in the work place. It brought and really weird memory.

I worked in the Printing field for most of my career. Camera operator, small presses, stripping (not that kind), Opti copy, graphic design. Back in 1979 I worked at this county office that had a small print shop. I was skinny and did not have these bad girls that I have now. Hence, I was a  braless girl.  I would come to work at 7 am before the other office people came in. There was this one man, he was like the vice president or something. He would walk into the room, say hi and put his arm around so that it touched my boob and then shake it!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!! Of course it was a very awkward and I didn’t know how to handle it. I also took the blame because I didn’t wear a bra but believe me the girls were only a 34 B.  Finally I went to my supervisor and told her what happened. She talked to the other bosses and I was told to lock the door so he couldn’t come in! Then I was ostracized and soon had to find another job. When I think about that now it makes me sick. How many other boobs did he shake and not get in trouble???

Feeling pretty lousy tonight. When I cough it hurts my head and my face feels swollen. I’m sure our crazy weather isn’t helping. 3″ of snow today and a big snow and wind storm coming our way for the weekend. I kind of like those big storm alerts. Makes me want to make pies and sew. Since everyone has cancelled for the weekend I should be able to do my cozy projects.

I have the embroidery machine all rethreaded and ready to do some sweatshirts, tee towels and vests. Now I need to thread the serger and I’ll be off and running if I don’t feel to crappy. Even little Bendi is not feeling well. She has a bad habit of picking up stuff on the ground. She may eaten way too much deer poop!

I took my first new prescription of cholesterol medicine tonight. My doctor says it is the best out there and it was cheap. Yay!

Peace and Out

 

 

 

Tidbits

25 Apr

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Some of you may already know that I won my first People’s Choice Award for my peacock painting at the SpACE Gallery show. I was so happy, 64 years old and my first ribbon. I’ve entered many shows back in the day, but never won so this is very special. My Cuban Dancer will be the next painting I frame and hopefully enter her in a show. I will be making notecards and canvass prints of each of them if you would like to order some.
I have had 2 rooms that I have absolutely hated since we have lived here. Our bedroom and bathroom. Now they are much better with some sprucing up. Love the new floor in the bedroom and I have made new curtains and put on a new comforter. Love it. Cleaning the shower up nicely but the stuff I use is great, but makes me another candidate for mesothelioma I’m sure. It’s a natural product but whew, it makes me cough.
Have had a really good last few days. Dale and Terry arrived on Saturday. Dale will be here this summer. Terry just visiting. Mona and Denny have the park looking great with all their clean up. 2 trailer loads of limbs so far. And….it’s howling again today. Ugh.
Have had a few campers in so I’m remembering how to run the office. It’s easy how I forget. Have actually sold a few items so I’m looking forward to begin sewing this week.
Listen up. Sometimes I either read too much or I hear too much regarding certain medications. One is Prilosec and one is cholesterol statins. For me and my GERD and Esophagitis, Prilosec is like a miracle. I tell someone I take it and they go “oh no did you know that causes alzheimer’s!!”. So I think maybe I don’t need to take it everyday. Guess what, then I feel like shit and my throat all the way down burns and it’s a horrible feeling. Now I will stay on it because all of that acid that destroy my esophagus, A couple of years ago my esophagus was black. So I will stop messing around with that pill. Next, cholesterol. Don’t ask me why I quit taking it. I was eating Fiber One for breakfast every morning for about 4 months and thought that would take care of cholesterol. Guess what. My blood work is so off the charts it’s scary. My doctor was not happy at all about any of this. And….a few weeks ago I had an EKG during my hyper anxiety attack and my heart rate was so scary looking. I couldn’t catch my breath and my heart rate was 108-130, Now, I definitely will go back on another statin that is a newer one. I am already exercising and quit Pepsi, cut down on caffeine by a zillion, so hopefully in 6 weeks my EKG will be much better and I won’t have to go to a cardiologist. Lesson learned big time. Do what our doctors tell us.
Today is Tuesday and just a few finishing touches on the house. It has never been so sparkly clean. Goal will be keeping it up for the summer.
My first small group is due in this Thursday and already have one cancellation due to crappy weather. We’ll see how it plays out.
My Miracle Morning regimen is wonderful. Getting up early is much easier but still going to bed is tough. It’s been 2 ½ weeks. Yesterday I asked Denny where I slept because I was in bed, on the divan and the recliner but not sure where I ended up!!
It’s a treat to be done with some very healthy and nurturing activities before my day starts. I love that there are 4 of us and we check in with each other.
I guess that is all for now. Peace
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I’m feeling a stink eye coming

17 Apr

I think is almost to serious stink eye stage with me but this fabric keeps getting in my way. I’ve dug all through my sewing room and now I’m in the cutting room. It’s in the kind of condition that overwhelms you just by looking at it. But….I did enter the room and have some shelves cleaned off so……I should finish tomorrow.

I did get 2nd wife Mona’s room all ready for her. She would have been here tonight except she had a run in with a pheasant and it took one of her headlights out!. That must have been bloody.  Anyway, she should arrive tomorrow.

Denny and I watched “Hidden Figures” last night. Such a great movie. I didn’t understand why there was this room of just black women  that were calculating? Was there a room of white women doing the same thing?

Into the 2nd week of Miracle Morning. Tomorrow is my 5:30 am day for Zumba. Today is one of those crave sugar days. I don’t understand what brings that on. Maybe my 2 pieces of cinnamon toast in the morning? Feeling all bloaty. I binged the Hugh Hefner story and they talked about when he was hooked on Dexedrine in the 60’s. I remember those pills. I didn’t need to lose weight in the 70’s but I wish I could take a pill now just to get that 10 lbs off. I tried some of those  fat burners but they didn’t do anything. I’ll stick to my exercise, weights and no Pepsi and see what happens.

Heard from Betty in Brownsville and she and her husband are going to stop by for a night on their way back to S. Dakota. We’ll put them up in the cabin. Denny was able to get the bathtub issue done today.

Had a yummy massage yesterday with Diane. I try to stay quiet during the session but it’s the only time we see each other so we yack it up during the massage. I have gone to her since 2004 after my snowmobile accident and she helped get me back on my feet. I can’t believe how long ago that was and how much it has still affected my life.

I’m watching this silly show called The Arrangement. It’s based on Tom Cruise and one of his wives. The lady had a huge pimple on her head when the show started but now it’s gone. I bet actors hate Hi Def.

For my reading part of my Miracle Morning I am reading “Read the Bible in a Year”. I have tried to read the bible many times to no avail. I’m going to see if I can do it. But the first day was Genesis and it’s very hard for me. I’ve decided to try and read it like a novel so I’m not so contradicting in my thoughts. We’ll see.

That’s it for now. Think I’ll eat a popsicle and try to get to bed at a decent time. Tomorrow will be another digging out the room day and hopefully making curtains for our bedroom and cabin but I’ve been saying that for a week now.

Peace

Saturday Musings

15 Apr

I love it when I drive by myself because my mind gets very busy about many things and then I want to write about the thoughts.

First things first. I finished my Cuban Dancer painting today at Carol Naylors beautiful home. She lives way up high in the Colorado Springs foothills. You can see all the way to Raton Pass on a clear day. I knew most of the other classmates because they are from one of our groups that camp at Circle the Wagons. It’s from a photo of my friend Nancy who was also in Cuba with me. I love the giant ant on my head. 🙂

Now my musings. I feel sorry for people who don’t feel like they are creative and they take some kind of art class; painting, ceramics, pottery, photography, quilting, etc. and are totally negative during the process because they have no confidence in what they are doing. I never understand what they expect when they are doing something the very first time. I have no fear when it comes to doing a new project for the first time. I find it fun and exciting and it usually makes me happy. (unless I have ripped out stitches for 8 hours during a retreat). It can be intimidating, overwhelming and tiring, but….why does it have to be so painful. I listened all day to classmates criticizing their work. Of course Carol and others are encouraging and really all of the paintings were great. Watercolor batik isn’t the easiest method but it can be done by novices.. Bottom line is I’m happy that I don’t have the fear of trying new things. It’s funny. We have this outdoor scrabble game at the rv park that is really fun. When a group is playing we have many campers watching. We invite them to play and they say “oh no, I haven’t played scrabble for 30 years!!!” Well DUH!! The words haven’t changed in 30 years. Anyone can spell Cat, Dog, The.  (Since it’s Easter weekend I am really trying not cuss during this rant).

Now let’s talk scary. I’m lucky that I didn’t get in 2 big wrecks today. One was almost a big rear ender on Hwy 115. I was thinking my GPS was telling me the wrong turn and then I almost turned on the wrong road, (I did have my blinker on) I realized it was the next road. This guy was soooo close to hitting me when I was slowing down I was waiting for the big crunch. Second almost wreck was on 29th street after leaving Hobby Lobby. I had the left turn signal and was turning when this guy came flying through the light from the other direction. Whew, too close of a call and I’m glad I had room to move over.

My day has been strange because I wasn’t able to fulfill my Miracle Morning ritual. I was up early but had a 2 hour drive to my class. What’s terrible is not only did I not exercise, I also had M&M’s and a Nestle Crunch bar when I left Pueblo. THEN I STOPPED AT KFC IN WALSENBURG AND HAD 2 PIECES OF CHICKEN AND A PEPSI!!!!!!!!. Talk about falling off the wagon, I jumped!. I feel like I going to have hives any minute. Anyway, tomorrow is a new day and I will start back on the right foot and finish my sewing/cutting rooms project.

I can’t believe there is snow  and  winds in the forecast later this week. Please, please, please don’t snow until the 2nd week of May!! (I know, I’m way overdoing the exclamation marks. Reminds me of a Seinfeld episode).

We are anxiously awaiting Mona’s arrival. She comes every spring and helps Denny with major chain saw and building projects. If she didn’t like living in Minnesota, I think Denny would become a polygamist and have both of us as his wives and I think she would be #1 wife. She even runs a chainsaw. I did do some clean up of wet leaves earlier this week but I don’t think that impressed Denny much. Especially since he had to pick up all the heavy bags.  And she is a kickass golfer. We should be able to at least play one round while she is here. Dale is coming in but now sure when. He’s watching the weather as he comes from AZ.

Talked to Billie today and I love that Kyler rides his bike over to Elliott’s grade school and they both ride their bikes home from school. He is a great big brother. The first time he did it his Grandpa couldn’t pick up Elliott, so Kyler rode his bike to her school and she rode on the bike with him. I wish I would have seen a photo of that.

Happy to get a massage tomorrow morning.

We celebrated Easter on Friday evening listening to a beautiful Cantata at the Methodist Church. A wonderful group of talented singers in our area. I’m also watching the Ten Commandments as I write.

I’m anxiously awaiting some artwork from my friend Heather. She has this really cool idea that I’m going to help with using my embroidery machine.

I’m trying to figure out a system for hospital beds that I think I could go on Shark Tank with. I need some assistance from some CNA’s and nurses to see how we can make it work.

I can’t believe it has been 4 weeks since my brother died. How can that be??? What have I been doing for a month?? I still feel an emptiness regarding his passing. Have done well not 2nd guessing some issues and I do believe he is with family and friends. When someone passes away, family or friend, I tend to get a little hyper and unfocused and then I get determined to live each day to its fullest and hope I am right with my family and friends. Hence, the Miracle Morning routine this time. I find it a great healthy and energizing program and gives me a healthier mind.

Peace.   

 

Friday, 6 days of being on a healthy routine

14 Apr

Day 6 of The Miracle Morning. What a difference already. I have been up between 5:30 and 6:30 everyday. I do my new beauty regimen on my face, stay silent for a few minutes, affirmation, visualization and exercise. I’ve done it all today and now scribing as they call it. There are a few sluggish moments during the day but no need for a nap every day.

Zumba is at 6 am twice a week. So glad Annalee is leading it this year. Still my favorite exercise.

TIDBITS:

I’m feeling nervous about that big bomb yesterday and nervous about Korea. It reminds me of being in jr. high and worrying about the atom bomb. What would it be like to have missiles attacking the country? Would they land by La Veta or just big cities. Yikes, don’t like all this in my head.

It’s so nice to be back home. Had my nails done and it’s always fun to visit with the ladies in the salon. Love getting my Chai with whipped cream at the coffee shop. Attended a free movie at the Library yesterday afternoon called “The Innocents”. It was subtitled and was a WWII movie where the Russians attack the nuns at their church.

Had weird phone call a couple of days ago. A man called and told me his name and then he starts ranting at me about be sure and don’t call him back. I was so confused because I couldn’t figure out what his problem was. He just kept saying “I left you a message and it said to call me back but I don’t want you to call me back!!” “I’m sure I just interrupted something very important for you to take this call!!” He just went on and on. Then i went to my voice mails and heard his message which came in at 1 pm and he’s calling me back at 4 pissed because I hadn’t returned his call. All this hubbub over a reservation for 1 night! I don’t think I would want him in the park anyway.

I’m still digging through my sewing items and trying to get everything organized. I always do that at the beginning of the season. The first thing I did was fold all of my fabric. Today is just putting miscellaneous items away and get rid of all the piles. It’s a daunting project but feels very nice when it’s done.

Going to the Springs on Saturday for a painting class with Carol. I’m going to finish my Cuban Dancer. Can’t wait. Taking my peacock to the SPACE gallery to enter in a show.

Bendi and Jumper are doing great and Jumper is still annoyed how much Bendi wants to be next to him.

I guess that’s it. I’m trying a new way to write the blog which I hope will make it easier to print!

Hope everyone has a good weekend.

The Miracle Morning

9 Apr

Good morning. It is 7 am and I’m getting ready for a busy day. Judy is here for the weekend and we have begun a new self development program called The Miracle Morning. It’s all about getting a good start on your day, getting more rest and more exercise.  Yesterday was the first morning and  instead of getting up at our scheduled time of 5:30, we finally made it up at 7. Today our scheduled time was 6 and we did it. The acronym is SAVERS Silence, Affirmation, Visualization, Exercise and and Read. What I hope it does for me is prepare me for the day so that it helps my anxiety and I’m more prepared for the morning when the park opens. Getting up early seems to be something I can do but the going to bed at a certain time is very hard. So far that has been horrible but the book says it takes about 10 days to adjust. I’m tired enough to go to bed but once I’m there, I immediately begin squirming, I get hungry, thirsty. Yuck. I may try a pot gummy bear tonight and see if that helps my squirmies. This also going to help my Candy Crush addiction which is beyond ridiculous.

Now of course we know I can’t just do one thing and then build up to other healthy life changes. I am on day 6 of no Pepsi. I was a little nervous for the last month due to a racing heart and short of breath. (Now I know I can bouts of anxiety which cause all these issues but I’m not paying enough attention.) But I did see my doctor on Monday. My heart rate went between 103 to 130. Of course I’m freaking out but doctor isn’t. We did do bloodwork and chest x-ray. Also #1 thing to is cut back on CAFFEINE.  Yikes. but I have and I really do feel better. Maybe after my brother John and all the happenings regarding his illness, maybe I’m just in an over whelmed state.

Was able to accomplish some office organization yesterday. Judy cataloged my movies of which we have 340 +.  I’ll need to  thin them out and add some new ones soon.

The snow has melted and we are in for a 60’s week. The mountains are still full of snow which is always beautiful.

Have caught with many friends and it feels good to be back home. Once can’t go to town for a minute without coming home in an hour. Ginny stayed all night Tuesday night. Mitzi,Giny and I watched The Nocturnal Animals.  It is a great suspense/drama that has room for discussion afterward.. Diane came for dinner Friday night. Much laughter which is always wonderful. Nancy dropped by yesterday and then we went with Sandy and John to La Plaza for dinner. Those who know me would be proud of how I did not throw too much of a fit when they told me they were out of apple cheese cake after they had told me they had some. When we were heading to Sandi’s car we saw the lights on and that the wa running for the last 2 hours, and the keys were in the card and the car was locked. Unfortunately we had to call Denny who was already in bed after driving for 12 hours from Texas. I think both he and John were giving us all the STINK EYE. All was taken care and I did warn Sandy that this was a blog worthy story.

Taking Judy to the train and having Chinese before she gets on. That’s our routine for train departures.  Fun weeekend with her.

Today life is good, I hope your is too!

Back home but feeling unsettled

31 Mar

It was hard to say goodbye to my brother on Wednesday, hop in the car right after the funeral and start our trip back home. Unfortunately that was the way it had to be.

The funeral was so so special. The little chapel was full of his co-workers, caretakers, and ARC employees who were teaching him to sing and draw! He was becoming quite an artist. To watch the wheel chairs and the other challenged friends of his all go up to the casket was heart wrenching. His Sunday school teacher did a wonderful job overseeing the funeral and he had some great John stories. It was interesting to know that John read the bible during the week and they would discuss on Sunday mornings. Such a special brother.

Billie and I rode back to Topeka that afternoon and it was wonderful to have some one on one with her. That happens like once every 5 years! Denny and Ispent the night with Cindy and Chuck and then were up very early to get home in time to pick up Jumper and Bendi. They were so happy to see us and us them.

The house is in total turmoil. Denny is putting new flooring in our bedroom. I love the new blue he painted the walls. He has to use the table saw in the office area due to the snow. I spent all morning with Justin and then a phone call to our internet provider trying to get our internet back. Thank goodness, it is up and running strong. I just spent the last 2 hours working on reservations and confirming some online dates. Now, I have to think of the next project to start on. Of course I would love to sew, which may just happen because we are expecting about a foot of snow.

We are both going to get back in a healthy eating routine. After literally sitting by hospital beds for a couple of weeks I am seriously bloated. Once again, I definitely hope to incorporate exercise this season. I really must because my heart is going to get squishy.

I feel weird just blabbing on. I feel like I need to be quiet and still and mourn. But, is mourning even a possibility for anyone? You have to go back to work, go back home, go on with life……. It doesn’t feel good to me.